Thursday, May 28, 2009

I love surprise parties

I've been doing a large amount of journal writing lately, which has taken the many thoughts that simultaneously blaze through my head and put them to rest. Although I can not say the rest is entirely peaceful.

I have a lot of ideas and dreams and goals about my future. A lot of them. Like, a ton. And the past few days I have been thinking about if what I am doing now is going to get me to where I see myself, or if I will just be having ideas and dreams and goals forever. People should always, always have ideas, dreams, and goals. I just want to be realizing and living some of them while I'm forming more.

I just saw the movie 'Marley and Me.' The main character said he was always surprising himself with his accomplishments. I wish I could say that about myself. Luckily, I'm still young.

I don't think I've ever realized how much effort must go into becoming what I want to become. I know it's worth it. I know it. I know it. The adversary knows where the cracks in my walls are, though. Sometimes I just get so tired. Somehow, I know it will all turn out okay. I just hope that one day I will look back and surprise myself.

4 comments:

jewels said...

Your surprise party will be amazing Belle...you have no idea how wonderful you are just yet. Hang on tight for the rest of the ride however; I think it's going to be even better!

Kirsten Smith said...

I can relate to a lot of what you said. I agree that its easy to "know" things and still hard to achieve them. You can do it though! I believe in you.

Also, thanks for liking my blog even though its a couple blog. haha. I don't get why cassi had to e-mail you the link though? I posted it on my old blog AND on facebook. Either way, i'm glad you found it!

Love ya! and miss ya!

Autumn @ Autumn All Along said...

This was really uplifting and much needed, thanks for sharing.

amanda said...

my hands are paralyzed